Have you ever heard of toothbrush abrasion?? Well, I hadn’t until I realized I did it to myself HA. Honestly, things could be so much worse, but how annoying that taking too good of care for your teeth can actually negatively affect your teeth?!! I’m sorry but I was JUST trying to keep my teeth clean and white. Before I get into the point of this, don’t do what I did and brush super hard on your teeth while using abrasive whitening toothpaste. You’ll save money and your teeth.
Anyways. As I was pondering this whole ordeal I got myself into, God for real spoke to me so hard. You are probably questioning yourself like how on earth is God speaking to you through your teeth that you messed up? (Seriously God is helping me find the humor in my teeth because I am the ripe age of 24 and everyone at the periodontist was a solid 30 years older than me). God shows up every time amirite people?! Whether that be in a doctor’s office you shouldn’t be in for like another 20 years or in the mirror every morning.
To acquire this abrasion, you literally have to brush your teeth so hard over and over that it makes your gums recede and basically erodes your teeth. Disgusting, I know. In my defense, I had NO idea brushing hard could do this and your gums are extra sensitive during pregnancy so, recipe for disaster. I really believe I have this because I am a visual learner and this abrasion in my teeth represents my faith life the past couple of months. I have been wearing down my faith by brushing the world on top of it. That doesn’t quite make sense so let me break it down.
I let the enemy and the world into my heart and didn’t run to Jesus the second I felt it happen. I just kept brushing the world on top of my faith which led to it being “eroded” and wearing down my heart. I mean seriously I have been WORN out and it’s because I am wearing my faith away! The more we let the world into our everyday thoughts, hearts, and actions, the more your spiritual life is going to get worn to pieces. Trust me, I have been living it! You know how freeing it feels to write out a prayer and be so gut honest with God and then to wake up finally without feeling the chains that have been holding you captive? I mean can I get a AFREAKINGAMEEENN, because that’s how I feel. This visual of my teeth (I really hope you’re laughing on the other side of this) straight up showed me what I’m doing to myself when I shut Jesus out. I am eroding my life, wearing away all the joy He has so graciously given me. His mercy let me still find those little glimpses of joy in this awful, yet funny, journey; but, in all honesty, the negativity I was putting on myself about who I think I am instead of who Jesus SAYS I am really weighed heavy on my heart.
The enemy is so powerful, but I can promise you Jesus is bigger than the enemy and any hardship you’re facing right now, even at this very moment. Maybe you’re like me: stubborn, controlling, prideful, and you shut God out and think your way is better than God’s traffic free, no cops allowed highway..but I seriously promise you, you are SO wrong.
If you hadn’t already read Romans 8 I highly recommend it. I read the NIV version and then go back through and compare it to the Message version. Here’s some verses from the Message that really speak to me
Romans 8: 1-2
“With the arrival of Jesus, the Messiah, that fateful dilemma is resolved. Those who enter into Christ’s being-here-for-us no longer have to live under a continuous, low-lying black cloud. A new power is in operation. The Spirit of life in Christ, like a strong wind, has magnificently cleared the air, freeing you from a fated lifetime of brutal tyranny at the hands of sin and death.”
Romans 8:1-2 MSG
“God went for the jugular (amen) when he sent his own Son. He didn’t deal with the problem as something remote and unimportant. In his Son, Jesus, he personally took on the human condition (so Jesus could have had toothbrush abrasion, too!!), entered the disordered mess of struggling humanity (like us trying to control our freaking future) in order to set it right once and for all. The law code, weakened as it always was by fractured human nature, could never have done that. The law always ended up being used as a Band-Aid on sin instead of a deep healing of it. And now what the law code asked for but we couldn’t deliver is accomplished as we, instead of redoubling our own efforts, simply embrace what the Spirit is doing in us.”
Romans 8:3-4 MSG
How freeing is that last sentence “simply embrace” what the Spirit is doing IN us. Embrace that Jesus is literally changing your heart every second of everyday, embrace that He wrote your most perfect story and no matter what you do, He has control and will see it through to the end. Finally, embrace the fact that Jesus LOVES you SO much that He will do anything and everything in His power to make sure you feel it, see it, and digest it. For me to find my way back to Him, it took me going hard in the paint on my teeth to look up and see what He was teaching me but, here I am, once again, finding Him through the midst of it all.
Yes, I am sure some of you are like “she has REALLY lost it this time” but I just do not care lol. Why? Because I really needed this awakening and I refuse to just let myself experience it without sharing (for laughs as well as life lessons). Jesus shows us so so so much grace and I am so thankful. His grace gives us the chance to find Him in a new closeness in our faith journey to make our relationship with him stronger, and be able to speak out on how He changed us yet again for the better.
To sum it all up, don’t brush your teeth as hard as I did especially when you’re pregnant and have sensitive gums 😅..but also remember how much God loves you. He loves you so much that He will not give up on you. He won’t turn away when you constantly close the door on His face or in my case slam it a couple of times like an angry 16 year old. He loves you so much that He will find the perfect timing and show up so you can see just how silly you’re being for not trusting His Will for your story. Finally, He loves you so much that He sent His one and only son to die for all the times we reject Him. We so easily bypass how powerful that moment of history really was and what it all means.
If you take anything away from this piece of the cyber world, I hope it’s a new sense of understanding that Jesus will not ever, never ever, give up on your lost soul, no matter how hard you try to brush him away.
I pray these words are like honey to your soul, sweet as can be.
Also, Lock turned 8 months yesterday so enjoy the fun pictures of how stinking cute this butterball is!